There is just so much confusion. Am I really this lazy, or are there much deeper obstacles in the way? If I solved these problems, would action become easier? Or am I just that hopelessly lazy?
I’m obviously very distracted from the things that should be important for me at this point in my life. I should be fighting a battle in the outside world, but the battles within my mind seem so much more brutal and deadly. Can I get seriously started on the right path in life before winning these battles? Or do they need to be won before I can motivate myself to move forward?
I’ve accomplished so little, but I’ve been fighting for so long. I might not appear to do much at all, but my mind is always exhausted.